“But I think that I have already been moving too long in a sphere which is not my own – allow me to paddle in my own element.” – Ivan Turgenev

I held off on posting this for a few days as I feared that it might come off as too negative. But I want this blog to be authentic so here you go…

I’m learning that living alongside a chronic neurodegenerative illness like Parkinson’s Disease might possibly be similar to navigating a wavy ocean. Or in my case, since I don’t live near the ocean, steering a canoe through both fair and stormy weather. Sometimes when the water is rough, you rely on your experience and employ all of your paddling skills to safely make it through the storm. Other times, the waters are smooth and you can take in the scenery as you mindlessly dip your paddle in to move forward.

This is where I want to be. Even though, at times, the conditions may be rough…I want to purposely choose smooth.

Mindless dipping sounds good.

I am taking a break from reading through and deciphering the complicated language and purpose of ‘promising’ scientific research reports. If they find a cure, I’ll surely hear about it.

I am taking a break from advocating and building awareness for Parkinson’s Disease. Releasing myself from the ‘patient pressure’ to inform others.

I am taking a break from trying to read through Parkinson-based books on my bedside table. Fictional escapism will produce better dreams.

I am taking a break from trying all of the latest recommended supplements and dietary changes. I am going to eat the cake.

I am taking a break from Parkinson’s.

Of course, Parkinson’s never takes a break from me, but I can dictate how much I give back to it.

While I am sure I will likely get back on board at some time in the future, for today I’m riding the perfect wve.